Lists

My life is now a list...it never ends, no matter how many things I cross off, more appear at the bottom.  There are multiple lists. "The Primary List" is a full page (binder paper) and my "Family/house" task list is shorter only because I am puposely leaving off things like vacuuming and folding clothes.  Even though I don't add them in writing, they are still there lurking inside my head in the "Head List." 

I am learning to balance my calling and my family (me time - what's that?) sort of.  Just after I go to two baptisms, prepare my sharing time lesson, and write the agenda for Thursday's meeting.  I know, don't get burned out - delegate - I do that, but even delegation takes time.  Hopefully, in the next few weeks I go from putting out "fires" to actually preventing them.

I have the hardest time just letting things go - relaxing - just roll with the punches.  I get so unsettled if I try and ignore things - "NO!  I can fix this - I can prevent that mess if I only stay on top of things."  Scott has been very supportive.  All I have to say is "Too Much, too much," and he knows and is there.  Oh yeah, Scott starts school next week.  Sigh.  I know I have so much to learn - I can't dump all this on Scott.  There is only one person who can take it all - I think I will go pray.  Only He knows how to make "Too much, too much," all better.

*Please note that although I sound down (maybe I am) in this post I really do enjoy my new calling.  It is so challenging but it is such a blessing too.

*I just added "blog" to my "Head List" so you should see some pictures of my sweet, loving, patient-with-their-preoccupied-mommy boys soon.